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Things I am grateful for on my 30th birthday

28 feb

Those who know me know that I love my birthday. And i mean LOVE. Weeks and months before the day itself I start looking forward to it. This time though, not so much… The number 30 scared me, and I was not entirely sure I wanted to leave my twenties just yet.

If I am honest it has mostly to do with the fact that I am 30 and single – and that was just not the plan. But then as the clock turned midnight last night and the day finally came, I was filled with this enormous feeling of gratitude. Gratitude for all the blessings I have in my life, and gratitude for life itself. So I started writing it down – and here it is.

I am grateful…

–  for still being aroung and being able to live to see this day. Many people around the world die before they ever see the age of 30…

– for all my wonderful friends – old and new alike. Thank you for bringing so much joy and love to my life.

– for my family. My father the sailor, my mother with the sensitive warmhearted artist soul, and my one of a kind precious brother. I love you to bits! 🙂 Same goes for my extended family of course, both blood and the other kind.

– for all the precious teachers I have had in my life. From my first teacher – my mother, to my grandma Eva who taught me reading, writing & math when I was 5 years old. My karate teacher Simon Chilembo who taught me to believe in myself and who gave me strength, confidence and the belief that it is OK to be yourself and to be loud and proud. All my school teachers along the way.  For all my past bosses who have taught me so much about business. Thank you for making me into who I am today.

– for yoga and the amazing changes it has brought to my life ❤ Thank you John for being my teacher and for bringing yoga and these precious teachings into my life. I am so grateful for the whole yoga community at Eight Treasures Yoga – you light up my life.

– for my health. At 30 I am stronger, healthier and in better shape than ever.

– for having a great job. I am blessed with a job that makes going to work a joy, and after holidays I actually look forward to going back and seeing my team and all my great colleagues again. You rock!

– for having a place to live, and even having the good fortune of owning an apartment. Yes it is small, but it is cosy and located in the best part of Oslo (in my humble opinion) – and it is home.

– for all the heartbreaks. Yes, there have been many… But I have never given up hope, and I am grateful that even after all that I still believe in love and am not afraid to open my heart again. And even though being single and 30 wasn’t really part of the plan I am OK with it, and I have a truckload of life lessons with me. I have a lot of love to give, so in the meantime I will try to give it to all the people who are in my life already.

– for love. Yes there have been heartbreaks, but there has also been love in my life. A LOT of love. And I am so grateful. To me love is the reason we are all here.

– for having had the good fortune of growing up in Norway. Several times over we have been named the best country in the world to live in – I can see why. I am humbled by my very fortunate circumstances and will do my best to give back to the less fortunate.

– for music. Music is one of my many passions, and I  cannot imagine my life without it. There is nothing like the right music to lift my spirits, and I have had so many unforgettable concert experiences.

– for karate and everything (and everyone) it has brought into my life.

– for all the places I have been. I LOVE to travel, and I am grateful for having been able to experience unforgettable trips to South Africa, Thailand, New York, Miami, countless countries in Europe as well as a road trip all the way from Minneapolis MN to Arizona, Los Angeles, San Diego, Las Vegas and then back to MN while studying in the US.

– for my love of books and movies. The ability to be totally absorbed in a story, whether while reading or watxhing a film is something I am very grateful for. Sometimes you just need to escape for a little while.

– for my positive outlook on life and my sense of humour. Crying until I laugh, or laughing until I cry.

– for all the inspirational people in the world. Writers, artists, politicians, freedom fighters, and people I meet every day.

– for all the happiness that fills my life – from the small stuff to the big stuff. It is all around – and I am very grateful for that.

– for all the lessons I have learned. Some have been hard, but they have all been important.

Thank you.

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Long time – no blogging…

3 nov

It’s been a long time since my last blog entry, the reason being that my mind has been busy dealing with the grief of losing people close to me.

Grief is weird in many ways. At first there’s the shock when it feels like you’ve been hit by a truck, followed by vast emptiness. Feelings of hopelessness and questions why dominate. After a while you move into a place in between where you start living «normally» again, and once again worry about the regular stuff. But then little things can trigger memories, like a song or an image in your mind, and you go straight back into the sadness again. When it feels like you’ve started to grasp what has happened, you are suddenly reminded that you have not come to terms with it, it is as unfathomable as it was when you first heard.

Losing people close to you is incredibly hard – but the worst way of losing someone is when you don’t get to say goodbye. There are always so many things you wish you could have said, and mainly of course how much you love them. There are always things you wish you had done different, that you had called more often, seen them more often etc. The thing is that you can never change those things, they are in the past. The only thing you can do is hope that they knew how you felt about them, and that they knew how much they meant to you.

During this time I have felt the love and caring of family and friends. There have been so many to support me and show me that they care, and I cannot say how much I appreciate it. Even though there is nothing anyone can do, it means so much that people are just there for support.

Losing people close to you also makes you think about the important things in life. It has made me think about how I live my life and how I take care of the people who mean the most to me. It is easy to get caught up in life’s trivialities and not have time for people as much as you would like to. But I will definitely make a bigger effort to show them that I care, and that even though I cannot always meet them as much as I would like, I think about them all the time. When you lose someone it works as a giant wake up call. A wake up call to live your life the way you really want to with no fear, and remember the things that the loved and lost ones taught you. Take chances, make changes and make sure you show the people you love that you love them.

It has also made me think about how precious life is, and to wonder about what happens when people die. Where do they go? Is there such a thing as a soul? These beautiful people who were here just a short time ago are not here anymore, and I actually find myself hoping that there is a heaven…