Arkiv | desember, 2010

Going with the flow

2 des

«Action and reaction, ebb and flow, trial and error, change – this is the rhythm of living. Out of our over-confidence, fear; out of our fear, clearer vision, fresh hope. And out of hope, progress.»

– Bruce Barton

Have you ever had periods in life when everything just seems to go your way? People seem friendlier, the sun seems brighter, you get what you wish for and problems just fade into the distance? Now, I know what you’re thinking…. «That’s being in love» But this time there is no boy in the picture. This time it’s all just life showing itself from its best side and things generally going my way.

As could be easily understood from some of my last blog posts it has been a rough couple of months. Losing loved ones is probably the hardest thing people go through and it hit me hard. Also, there have been other stuff. «Small» stuff if you will, but stuff nonetheless. Work issues, friendship issues, failed romance(s) etc. etc. Now, I am usually a very positive person (or so I’ve been told) but I have felt unusually down the last few months. It can be argued that the way I am when I’m down is how other people normally feel, but that’s a whole other story. The important thing is that I got through it, and as cheesy as these quotes can be I really feel like I have reached «the light at the end of the tunnel», found «the clouds silver lining» and discovered that «what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger». And it feels good. Very good.

Last week I quit my job. It is a job I’ve had for 2 years, and a company I’ve worked for for almost 4. It was a major decision and a huge milestone, but it was also the start of something new. I have gotten a new job that I am truly excited about with a company (or school rather) that I feel I can identify with and that has so many great things to offer. I feel excited about the new year in a way that I haven’t felt for many years (and being me that really says a lot)! I feel like this new job brings so many opportunities to learn, grow and develop professionally and I really couldn’t be happier.

Another thing that I have really come to appreciate is the importance of good friends. Friends that understand and support you, friends who are there for you no questions asked and without judgement. Friends who can make you laugh when things are at their darkest, and friends who can cry with you when laughing is just too hard to do. I have many of these kinds of friends, and I am deeply thankful for them. I do not know how I would cope without them, and I hope I never have to find out. Some of these friends are also family, some by blood and some by heart, both equally important. I don’t know what I have done to deserve all of these wonderful people in my life, but I cherish my good fortune. (I also thank them all for I just told two of my best friends yesterday that I consider myself a very lucky person. Things seem to go my way most of the time and I have definately come out of some tricky situations in the best way that I could have ever hoped for. If it’s luck or something else I don’t know, but nonetheless I thank my lucky stars and smile to the world.

When I think of the new year ahead I see a healthier, happier version of myself with an exciting job, my own apartment, happy times and lots of opportunities for growth. I predict that 2011 will be the best year ever –  Yay! 🙂

In closing I’ll post a poem I wrote earlier this fall – before reaching the end of the tunnel so to speak…

Hope for change

Something I read the other day made me hopeful
A quote sparked something inside
Like a sign telling me that things will be getting better
”It is before dawn the night is at its darkest”
The light is approaching

I am a child of the light
That is what I know and where I can relax
Darkness is another world unfamiliar to me
I feel like it is slowly engulfing me and I lose myself in it

So please let the light back in
I am ready for the dawn to come and yet again illuminate my life
It’s been a very long and dark night
I’ve always believed in the light at the end of the tunnel
It’s just that this tunnel is the longest I’ve had to travel this far…